Oct 27, 2017 / Songs

Love Like A Hurricane

Recently I’ve been so overwhelmed with my own inadequacies. I’ve struggled with anger at myself and at God. Anger that I’m not better. Anger for still struggling with depression. Anger for continually making everything more emotional and difficult than it needs to be. Anger for feeling too much.

My prayers with God have become less clean more raw and real. It’s messy. I’m not very put together right now.

I’ve heard this song for years but just recently understood the story behind John Mark McMillan writing¬†How He Loves.

It was written out of his grief and anger towards God after the death of a close friend. Living in the wake of this destruction John talks about God meeting him in his brokenness and him realizing how God pursues us when there’s nothing desirable in us.

The song isn’t about God’s love for us when everything is sunny and pretty. It’s a raw, real picture of God loving us with a furious overwhelming love.

“Loves like a hurricane / I am a tree / Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy”

Hurricanes aren’t pretty. They wreck everything in their way. They’re relentless in their path.

God loves me this way. He’s not just a soft, warm, and fuzzy God loving his perfect little children. He loves me with a relentless and intense love. Whatever is in my heart doesn’t stand a chance against the wind and mercy of his love.

I can be angry at myself. I can be angry…even at him. I don’t have to clean up my act with God. The weight of his love is so incredibly intense there’s nothing I could do to stand up to it.

This doesn’t fix everything. It’s still not pretty. Hurricanes¬†leave destruction and chaos in their path. Sometimes God’s love can feel like that. It wrecks us! It destroys the perfectly constructed facades of our lives that we present to others and to God.

When we experience God’s raw and overpowering love we’re never going to be the same! Everything’s not going to be better immediately but it’s a beautiful mess when he wrecks us with his love.

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath
The weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these
Afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize how beautiful you are
And how great your affections for me

Oh how he loves us so
Oh how he loves us
How he loves us so

Yea He loves us
Oh how

We are his portion
And he is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking
So heaven meats earth like a sloppy wet kiss
And my heart burns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way
He loves us

Oh how he loves us so
Oh how he loves us
How he loves us so

Yea He loves us
Oh how

I thought about you
The day Stephen died
And you met me between my breaking
I know that I still love you God
Despite the agony
See people they want to tell me your cruel
But if Stephen could sing
He’d say its not true
Cause your good